Making progress -

I think. Maybe. At least I took one step forward - after Easter, I'll be taking a break from singing in my church's chancel choir. At least until our music director returns from leave - maybe longer. Not sure. Just the knowledge that there are just two Sundays left to sing is a huge relief to me. Just too much stress there. Not from the choir members - let me be VERY clear about that. I LOVE them, and it was hard to decide to take a break. See, at this time, I'm the only soprano, which means that they may not be able to sing for worship in May if I'm not there. Or they may - it depends on what music they can find. But I won't be a part of that process.

I did go and talk to someone - about my current "situation", feelings of stress & anxiety, anger, etc. It did help. She's the one who helped me sort out that I really did need to step back from choir for a bit. Which means I may also take a break from even attending worship at my church. Just for a bit.

In other news: my eldest S. will be graduating from college this June! And THAT is very exciting! We already have our reservations to go down for the ceremony. I'm already thinking about what to wear! S.'s journey to this point didn't go as I thought it would. She started her college life at Humboldt Univ. in 2003, but dropped out after a couple of years. It just wasn't working for her - it wasn't what she wanted. She took a couple of years to figure out what she DID want, and when she returned to college, it was with energy and enthusiasm! It's a joy to see her SO loving what she's doing - it's what I want for both my girls. To really take the time to find their passion, and then go for it! It's not always easy for a mother to watch her daughters on that journey, but it's a blessing to be there for it.

As for me, I've returned to Weight Watchers in an attempt to get a handle on my stress/comfort eating habits. Which are NOT helpful. You'd think I'd be able to do this program on my own, but if that were true, I wouldn't have gained back some of the weight I lost. So I returned. And it's helping. It helps me to make better food choices, which helps me feel better about myself -- which helps me not feel as stressed, depressed and anxious. All good. And I've lost a few pounds - which is important to me. I have some cute clothes that I kinda "grew" out of, and I'd like to fit back into them and not have to go shopping! Just being frugal.

Looking forward to May, and then summer. Hopeful that my church will have a new permanent pastor sooner rather than later.